[ Dec 11th ]

well..its been a few days after Dec 11th..duhh [sighed]

i am 26!!gosh..never thought that i would becoming 26..this is scary..~it is!! just realized that there are so many things happened in this 26years.yahh..i mean..A LOTs!i had been thru with so many happiness+sadness thingy..~

i lost my beloved granny last year..found my true love..had cheeky n troublesome niece..n perhaps..having such a cool n lovely family ever!!gawd..am so thankful for all those gifts..

Dec 11th..
well..almost everyday i had these kind of deja vu..where the same things keep on happening to me..i dont even know what it means..and seriously..its freaked me off!! have u ever felt this kind of freaky-feeling when everyday..u were in front of your lappy, and just with a quick-stare..you suddenly become speechless+stammering as the lappy-clock shows..11:12am/pm..

uh'huh..it was scary!!thats not the 1st time i'd been thru it..its like..EVERYDAY!! even if i'd been looking at my Guess wristwatch..there's a time where i started to had this 'adrenaline-rush syndrome' when i saw that it was 11:12am/pm.. Seriously..i had these Deja vu everyday..and when i just found out that Dec 11th is just around the corner..i started to get nervous.wondering what will happened before/after Dec 11th..i was like traumatic!huu..

ok..when it was Dec 11th..maybe its a good thing that happened..i had this unexpected surprises from Daniel..he was here in Nilai which i was like a crazy women..and thought it was just a dream!n it was NOT!! he was my unexpected birthday gift.am so happy!! Dec 11th until Dec 13th..i had these so unforgettable moments.i was so happy..~with him around..with all the wishes,doa's and loves..yet i felt that i'd been completed by the age of 26 [alhamdulillah]

And that 'adrenaline-rush syndrome'..had just gone!syukur..~its a good sign i guess..
but i dont know..~Dec 14th had just passed..and here it comes..Dec 15th..~where i sensed there's an uninvited feelings in myself..~[uhukk]
i had a very terrible fight with my love ones..YES..a terrible ones!which i never thought i will spilled those 'nasty' words..and i'd just realized that it was not ME..~huu..
everythin started to screwed up when i just heard that he wanted to end-up everything!!god..what is really happening..=|

i dont have that guts to hold on..~i just cant believed that it was happening NOW..i lost everything..~huu..he just ended up the call..leaving me speechless..~and perhaps,i started to get crazy..~i messed with the things around me..~started to do crazy things until i realized that i had these few 'scratches'..i am dying..~

and just a while..the 'adrenaline-rush syndrome' started to distract me.i had that syndrome again.and yet,i guess..this is the one.the sign of 11:12..~huu..now..i tried to be strong..am still trying..~but thank god,things are gettin ok now..but just OK..~both of us are crazy..we are!!
n for our sake..we are trying very hard now to fix everything that had been messed![insyaAllah] i wanted to rid that 'syndrome' and that deja vu-freaky feelings from my life now..

i will..~

hopefully..things are getting better tomorrow..~its a hope..
my hope..~

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