If We Ever Meet Again

Oh my!! I had been missing my good ol' days so damn much! N yesterday miracles happened.i went back to my former school and meet up my fav-lovely cekgu!! Seronok nye!! Goshh..i never thought that i'd been left school for almost 13 years!! U got to be kidding me..hahaha.. Tua sudah sy rupe nye.tapi tak seda- seda dirik.ahaks..
Ok back to the stories..hell yeah!! Those memories flashened everytime sy across those places..tempat melepak..tempat berdating..tempat bwat jahat..hahaha.. Godd..sucha memorable precious good old times..

There's a small thought that come across my mind..kan best kalo esok-esok kite dapat bak to the future and select which decades that we wanted to go through.hehehe..i will definitely choose my primary school time!! Owhh indahnye dunia! Pn.Radziah and Teacher Hanani..u are the best teacher i've ever had. And i'd been so thankful sebab without your guidance and support..i won't be as the way i am right now..hee.. Much love to both of u!!

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2013 - I AM BACK!!

Assalamualaikum everyone!!

Oh my...dah bersawang dah blog ni!apparently, i missed to blog like i used to do before. i really do!! anyway..this would be my first entry after an ages tak melekat kat sini. well.. HYE everyone!! lots of things happened last year.. those goods and bad.but somehow..still i managed to survived until today [ yayy..yippie me!!] this year obviously will be focused more on my future and career. hee..saye nak kawen. aci tak cakap macamtu? ahaks! will update more on it. 

thats all for today.blurry..~maybe a bit awkward sebab macam dah lame tak berblog like before.need some precious time to get used to it.ahaks!! Carpe' diem everyone!!! mwahhsss..

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May You Rest In Peace, Allahyarham Adik Norhazatul Alyssa / Baby ..~

Assalamualaikum world!

After a while..I just got back from visiting my neighbour with my youngest sister,Mimin.anyway,her 8years old involved in a tragic accident petang tadik.and the saddest part is that,she passed away due to internal injuries.i heard from my neighbour that her internal parts semua hancur![poor that little girl] saye sempat tengok jenazah depan mate tadik.and i didn't realized yang saye sendirik ternanges tengok jenazah.tenangnye muke die..~[walaupon i can see bruises kat mate die] her mom, Aunty Intan..she was hysterically cried and keep on saying .."BABY MOM..BABY MOM SAYANG..JANGAN PEGI "..ya Allah.Sunggoh hebat dugaan yang telah KAU berikan kepada keluarga Allahyarham adik Alyssa.tapi saye pasti..dugaan ini akan kuatkan lagi semangat family die.and yang pasti..Allah lebih sayangkan 'baby' [that's her surname.her family and friends used to call her with that name]

Aunty Intan nampak sangat lemah.terkulai.and saye tak pasti brape kali she collapsed everytime she looked at her 'baby'.Ya Allah..saye sendirik rase tak mampu nak tengok kesedehan family allahyarham..apetah lagi 'merase'.i still remembered,setiap kali kalau saye balik keje..obviously saye akan lalu kat depan rumah allahyarham.and setiap kali lalu,wajib ternampak 'budak kecik' yang comel tuh memaen kat depan rumah die.lepasni..dah pasti saye takkan nampak lagi 'baby' maen kat depan rumah die [sedehnye]

This is what happened actually..~[based on what my sis and neighbour told me]

Around 1.20pm tadik,soon after her parents fetch her from school..they went to one of the hypermarket [maybe to buy some groceries].her mom went in and she left with her dad inside the car.all of sudden she asked her dad to let her join her mom.soon after that,while she was running,crossing the road..there's one speedy van bumped her.and obviously..die sampai terpelanting jauh ok!!! [Subahanallah..] rase nye her head injured and a few bruises on her body.tapi bile bawak pegi hospital,some internal injuries detected.and she died because of that.. T_T

She was so cute!hyperactive and loving..and you guys bole tengok sendirik her own FB Baby a.k.a Alyssa..~

What a cute girl.We'll be missing you, baby..

One of the pic taken from her FB.Al-Faatihah untuk Allahyarham Norhazatul Alyssa..

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My Sis Engagement

Assalamualaikum.

Pheww..rindu betol nak menapak kat 'sini' macam dulu-dulu.anyway..i am back everyone!nothing to update actually..its just that last week was my sis's engagement.so i just wanna shared some pics during her engagement day.apparently..she looks so damn gorgeous.duhh..time flies.and i can't believe that she's going to be someone wife soon.dah besa awak Rina..~hopefully she's ready for those BIG responsibilities and able to take care of her 'hubby'.Aminn..~

 my younger sis, Rina Bellerina..

with her fiancé, Ashraf Hadi from Sarawak

My beloved sis and mom

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[ Home Deco 2012 ]

Assalamualaikum everyone!!

well..today's 14th February.and i bet everyone knew what i mean [haha] Valentine's Day kot [ade aku kesah?]ahaks! saye tak celebrate pon macam some of us.for me,nonsense kott.lagipon umat Islam kite pon tak sepatotnye celebrate this V-day.kenape?perlu ke saye explain?? i bet most of the Muslims like me know the reason why.ala..kalo nak ingat hari kaseh sayang kite..saye rase tiap-tiap hari kot kite kene ingat our lovey-dovey-days.takkan nak tunggu 14hb baru nak celebrate/ingat kot [ahaks!] tak penting pon tu sume.yang penting..kite kene slalu mendoakan agar perasaan kaseh sayang tu akan sentiase ade dalam hati and diri kite,like forever.Aminn!! barula BERKAT [hehe]

and another thing yang saye selalu prasan is that..setiap kali masok jek bulan February 14th,saye mesti akan busy.last year pon same.and same goes today.busy gile kot!padahal class ade satu jek hari ni.tapi penat nye Ya Allah..tuhan jek yang tau.saye sampai rumah jek..terus capek.and mule la mabok-mabok masok dalam bilik [ahaks!] tapi semenjak dua menjak ni..capek saye dah agak bkurangan kalo di compared mase dulu.masok jek rumah,terus rase tenang. is it because of the TEA DANCE? ehemm..u must be wondering,apela yang ko merepek ni Jiyna?? [ahaks!] well its all started since last month.me and my kaklong been so damn busy shopping bebarang to decorate our house in Penang.we did spent almost 1k at IKEA.but its really worth sebabnye..banyak kot interior thingy yang kitorang beli. my dad and my bro-in-law plak busy cat rumah.yang tak tahan tu, 3-4kali cat dinding.skali cat,warna tak bkenan di hati.cat kaler laen plak..pon same..[macam yenna la..] haha..then the last paintings..perghh..not bad!!

and now..our house 70% completely changed.especially our living room.sangat puas hati! sebabnye..bile memasing dah besa panjang..and able to earn our own money..bile suddenly do some contribution for the sake of our own family..rase macam puas hati sesangat!! SANGAT! hopefully our mommy will love it..hehehehe.. owh home sweet home..~

i bought this chandelier with Mimi ..chantek kott..

Okay..itu adalah TEA DANCE yang saye maksudkan.haha..the wall-paint.

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Promoting My Dearest Cousin =)

Assalamualaikum everyone! Hi all..!!

well..its been an ages i'd been away from this blogging thingy.and now..TARAAA!! i'm back with the NEW me!! hee..ye.saye sudah kembali!!yahoo..dah lupekan yang dah lepas.and start with a new life.saye dah malas nak sedeh-sedeh lorr..PENAT [bole camtu?] ahaks! well sepeninggalan saye..banyak mende jadik kot even baru sebulan i'd been invisible [hehe] anyway...i'd learned more about LIFE.and yang penting..i have to enjoy my life to the fullest! weee!!!

my work so far getting better.with our new 'pengarah'..i felt a bit ease compared to the previous.stressful jek rase [hee] and skarang nak mintak cuti pon cam okay.tak macam dulu..dari 25 cuti yang dapat..5 hari jek saye cuti last year.kalo tak..takdela cuti bersih saye untuk this year tinggal 35 days lagik.banyak gile kot!itu pon dah tolak GCR.this week jek saye dah keje 7 days a week and harusla saye dapat cuti ganti kan.terus jek tadik apply cuti terus kat Ketua Jabatan.happy!!!! owh life's getting better..hopefully pada mase-mase yang akan datang..it will be wayyyy more better than today. Aminn!!

anyway..i'd just found out that my cuzzy that lived faaarrr away kat Bristol tuh dah mule bjinak-jinak dengan VLOG.before this saye suke sangat mengadap Michelle Phan & Promise Phan..tapi skarang..saye dah start to stalked into my cousin's page.hee..so dalam mase yang same,saye nak mempromote cousin saye sendirik ye kawan-kawan..[hahaha] she looks more matured now from our last met.and obviously..she look so stunning and chanteqs kot. go Nadia go!!!

ahaks!

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Time Flies..~

05/01/2012

How time flies.cepat betol mase blalu.and i'd just realized that hari ni dah hari Khamis.which means..dah almost seminggu saye LARA [haha] yeahh..a tough+disastrous week ever!mood swings+hati pink.and i guess am getting a bit ok now.thanks to those yang sangat concern about me.asking my real condition now and so on..terima kaseh sesangat!! don't worry..am okay, i guess. beside, last few days 'WE' did talked.ow yah..we did.and baru skarang saye dapat tau something that had been hiding from me within these few years.i don't know how to respond actually..~erm but obviously saye sangat tekejut!should i blame him??or am i the one that should be blamed?? pity him..~bile saye dapat tau a bit about the secrets..terus saye dah lupe semua perasaan marah saye..saket hati saye..kecewa saye..towards him.what i felt is...

OH MY GOD!!HOW DOES IT HAPPENED??KESIANNYE AWAK!!I SHOULD KNEW IT EARLIER.YEAH,LIFE's UNFAIR.BE STRONG.PRAY FOR YOUR FAMILY..~

ha,ok.got that??that's what i felt.saye tetibe rase simpati pon ade.and now..i just don't know what was happening to me.i guess at this time..he might need me.and after all..saye still dapat kate putus about our relationship skarang.sebabnye..macam ade mende laen yang interrupt and at the moment,we just put our concern more on supporting each other.life's unfair kan?? mende laen yang patot di concern..tapi bole plak we put aside kejap.macam kelaka pon ade! adoii ape nak jadik dengan manusia skarang??macam cepat jek 'lupe diri'.Wallahualam..~

what ever it is..i have to settle all those matter jugak.so that everything will be solve and takyahla saye nak pening+crack my head pk pasal mende-mende tuh lagi.cos saye dah TERsangat penat and otak saye pon dah macam tepu jek untuk pk those masalah.saye harap sume ni akan selesai supaye the final decision will makes everyone happy..Aminn..~

P/S : next week will be the registration week.and i promise i'll make myself busy.haha.

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Kau Memang KEJAM!!

Ya Allah...

Sedeh nye bile tbace sesuatu yang betol-betol bwat saye tersentap!!Sedeh nye Ya Allah..~knape la ade jugak manusia macamni boleh wujud lagi kat dunia ni.huu..~saye pasti Allah akan bantu saye yang lemah ni.and saye harap what he'd give..he'll get back.Aminn..~Alhamdulillah i'd found 'these' now.like seriously..i started to hate YOU!!

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☀ I Will Be ☀

There’s nothing I could say to you

Nothing I could ever do to make you see

What you mean to me

All the pain the tears I cried

Still you never said goodbye and now I know how far you’d go

I know I let you down but it's not like that now

This time I’ll never let you go

I will be all that you want and get myself together

Cause you keep me from falling apart

All my life I’ll be with you forever

To get you through the day and make everything OK

I thought that I had everything I didn’t know what life could bring

But now I see honestly

You're the one thing I got right

The only one I let inside

Now I can breathe 'cause you're here with me

And if I let you down I’ll turn it all around

Cause I would never let you go

I will be all that you want and get myself together

Cause you keep me from falling apart

All my life I’ll be with you forever

To get you through the day and make everything OK

Cause with out you I can’t sleep

I’m not gonna ever ever let you leave

You’re all I got

You’re all I want

Yeah

And without you I don’t know what I’d do

I could never ever live a day with out you

Hear with me do you see you're all I need

And I will be all that you want and get myself together

Cause you keep me from falling apart

All my life (my life) I will be with you forever

To get you through the day and make everything OK

I will be (I’ll be) all that you want and get myself together

Cause you keep me from falling apart

And all my life you know I will be with you forever

To get you through the day and make everything OK

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Healing Process

Ya Allah,i pray to you ..may you give me strength and patience to face all these..~

Assalamualaikum..~

Third day without having 'someone' beside.again..it sucks!!saye tak tau kenape hari ni saye banyak berangan [thats what my friends said] i am not!!i guess..~its just that ttibe jek terflash back balik those things that happened 5 years ago.sedeh laaa!! kenape saye tak penah rase macam ni mase saye break ups with my previous ex's dulu?knape this time saye sangat terase that i'm LOSING someone that i really loved most [uhukk] saketnye ya Allah..~i thought i'll be okay after the breakup thingy happens.unfortunately tak pon..its getting worst! maybe this is the real feelings bile kite tpakse sacrifice our own feeling, letting go someone that used to be a part of our life.sekarang..saye banyak berdoa supaye Allah  bagi kekuatan untuk saye accept the reality.

been wondering what he's been doing right now.did he thinks about me?did he miss me???huu..~ye ye jek saye ni.padahal, saye yang rase macamtu..[huhu] deep down inside,i still want him back.but definitely i'm afraid of being hurt again..~kalo dah jodoh,takkan nak tolak.even bukan jodoh skalipon, i have to face it.everything happens is seriously beyond hurt and hard to face but i'm sure i will get through all these.everything happens for a reason kan? Allah takkan bagi ujian yang kita tak boleh hadapi , i am strong and i know that.I can feel it.

i'll be okay and I will be better than okay :') InsyaAllah..~hoping that my beloved families and friends will always be with me.don't promise something that you can't do.you will hurt people's feeling..

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